Saying Good-Bye

I have thought about Adam so many times in the past two weeks and I have longed for him BUT I am so thankful that things do not always go my way.  I have been able to enjoy the past couple of weeks with Owen without having to divide my time between two jealous boys. 

Owen leaves tomorrow and I have so many mixed feelings.  I will miss him dearly but it will be so nice to be able to make a meal in the evening without a toddler crying at my ankles.  When I think of his crinkly nose I want to cry because he will soon make it for his mom and not for me.  His frantic and passionate crawling through the living room will never be heard again and I feel an emptiness.  With all of the mourning comes a peace that he has a place where he truly belongs.  He will soon join a family that will care for him and nurture him.  Tomorrow is 'gotcha day' and it means good-bye for me but beginning a new life for him.  I hate good-bye's but I wouldn't have it any other way!